I don’t know if I have a name for what to call myself yet. I
don’t know if I ever will. But as of this moment something has changed deep
within me and I don’t think I will ever be the same again. Every time I read a
newspaper, watch television, listen to people talk about “The war on Terror” or
how good vaccines are for you. I’ll always feel like an outsider for knowing
that by changing my paradigm the world is a completely different entity than
what I was told it was.
I’m
not the type of person to hold my tongue, so obviously my friends and family
think I’m a lunatic. They think I’ve spent way too long living outside of
America and have been brainwashed by a cult or some supernatural force. And
yes, I think the planet is being ruled by technocratic psychopaths who are
attempting genocide on the human race. And no, that’s not an
overstatement.
The
fact is being away from my country where I’m not an indentured servant gave me
the time to think, dream, create, and discover things for myself and so now I
see the world clearly.
Entering
into this “brave new realm" has led me on a path to greater mental, physical,
and spiritual health for which I am eternally grateful. However it also has its
drawbacks because not everyone you know and love is ready to step into that
realm with you. Sometimes it can be depressing. You can feel very lonely and
depressed, like you are losing your mind at times. Sometimes you can feel like
you are the last sentient conscious being on earth stuck in an episode of The
Twlight Zone.
This
realm has taken you from your normal perspective. Some might see it as a
negative thing, as a place of gloom and doom. It’s really up to you what you
make of it. Now that you have a clear understanding of how the world works,, are
you going to use that knowledge to empower yourself; to innovate and create and
manifest a new world? Or are you going to huddle into a ball when you realize how deep the lies,manipulation and downright evil go?
I
do admit that there is a bit of grieving that takes place during the “awakening
process” very much like the Kubler-Ross stages of death. Denial, Anger,
Bargaining, Depression and Acceptance. Some people don’t make it through to the
other side to acceptance. Some people don’t bother to move forward and stay in
denial. Other people move past denial but get stuck in anger or linger in
bargaining and depression. If you can make it to acceptance that that’s where
the fortune and glory lies. You must be able to forgive yourself. You have to
realize that the trust you’ve put into the system has been thrown in your face.
That your intrinsic goodness you posses as a human being has been taken
advantage of. That’s OK you’re not a stupid or bad person just a trusting one.
That’s how we’re supposed to be. We should be able to trust one another without
being taken advantage of.
Now
that I’ve made it to the other side I’m excited to see what the Brave new realm
is going to bring, because change brings new possibilities with it. Now that you
know how things work you know how to fix them if they are broken.
This
blog displays thoughts, essays, and videos on the awakening process. I hope to
use this as a way to convey my thoughts and emotions and get other people to
process their thoughts and emotions as well. I’m in a good place in my life. It
is the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.
